Don’t you want to sometimes just grit your teeth and let those all too familiar words “how dare you” spill from your lips? Are you like me and want to sit and plot the downfall of those who have wronged you? I bet sometimes you wish those who have crossed you would get the justice they so darn well deserve.
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You know what I’m talking about. When you’re just waiting for him to call so you can reject him like he did to you. When you’re fiercely engaging in a one-sided competition with that effortlessly cool girl on Instagram. When you’re counting on writing your own success story just so everyone who didn’t immediately fawn over you will regret their chances to be your friend.
Y’all – that has been me for SO long, and I just bet that has been you too in one season or another. It is so so easy to let that sneaky thought of feeling totally attacked into your heart.
“Why did he get the job I’m way more qualified for?”
“How dare she talk about me that way behind my back!”
“I can’t wait until he begs me to take him back just so I can turn him down.”
Um, hello, people, these are all little peeks into my unfocused, uncentered, unbalanced heart when Jesus isn’t my first priority at dawn and last thought when I’m falling asleep.
You know what goes hand in hand with that fiercely consuming feeling of injustice?
One of my mentors once told me something that convicts me almost daily. Are you ready? Here it is:
You can’t make a humble man angry.
Wow. Sitting here writing this I’m feeling convicted for an attitude problem I had just a few hours ago! Why do we so often clench our fists and cry out “this isn’t fair” when things don’t go 100% our way? Honestly, how dare we feel injusticed when people wrong us when God shows us mercy a thousand times daily? We are SO prideful and foolish to believe that we deserve to get our way and walk out on top every time we deal with this fallen world. Why would we even want to come out on top in such an upside down world?
It is so much easier to share our fists are God and the rest of creation than look in the mirror at our multitude of shortcomings. Honestly, y’all, I would much rather do that and totally ignore my failures! But, let’s be real for a sec, there’s not fulfillment in that.
This week one of my best friends shared with me some scripture, and it totally blessed me beyond belief.
“Each time He said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ can work through me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
Okay, go read that verse one more time and try to soak up every bit of truth overflowing from it! This scripture is the perfect picture of how we can find unspeakable joy in showing the world our weakness, pain, shortcomings, and failures!
We are so prideful and foolish to think that something we or anyone else does could possibly screw up the magnificent plan of the creator of the universe! Like, holy cow, when we remember that and choose grace, we have NO reason to be bitter, feel injusticed, or seek revenge!
My exquisite best friend, Kelsea, who shared this beautiful scripture with me yesterday, also shared with me the raw truth that accompanies it.
“Failure is a reminder that we can’t do life apart from Him.”
I’m gonna press pause here and just say that Kelsea is SO wise! This is such an amazing truth we all need to tuck deep into our hearts! Instead of waving our fists at God, what if we looked inward at our own shortcomings and accepted the grace that none of us deserve but the Lord even still so readily blesses us with.
That is my prayer this week for myself and for all of you. Let’s all open our hands and hearts to God, surrendering our dumb little vendettas and wholeheartedly relinquishing our souls to be covered daily with His all-consuming grace.